I shall continue in this blog as my prayer journal.

It's just you and me God. No one else is here. I've taken off my headphones and only want to hear you.

Right now I pray for Kevin as he heads to Bonnaroo this weekend. Keep him safe Lord. Let him have an amazing time. And Father, if this is of you, please let him think of me. Let him take the lead on this one. He's REAL Lord and I just want your fingerprint to be all of us from the beginning if there is indeed a beginning.

Lord, I also pray for Leah and her big test today. Just cover her in your love and majesty and grace and hope and comfort. I can't imagine what her life has been like lately.

And Lord, thank you for placing Ashley and Bo on my heart yesterday. I just wrote them an email and I feel good about it. No more anger. Just peace. And a smile on my face. I'm sad about the things I've missed out on, but that's just me wanting to be in the middle of everyone's business. I don't regret, not for one second, what you've done with me over the past two years. Thank you Jesus. Thank you.

I love you. Please help me to show it to others more. Father, help me in this weight loss process because it's big and scary and daunting. But I want it. I want to be healthier, regardless of size. I want to get married and not want my husband to have to see me naked like this--I don't even like to see me naked like this.

I want to be able to be active and run around and not be embarrassed for doing so because I know I'll be out of breath and my thighs'll rub together.

If Kevin Hyde is the one for me, just send me signs Lord. I think he's terrific of what I know now. He loves Jesus and he loves music and those are the two things I treasure! And if he's not what I'm to dote upon, turn my heart like you did with Paul! Thank you for that!


Lord, I need to head to work now. But just keep us safe on our way to Birmingham. Lord bless Jon, Micah, Ryan and Bobbo as they play the festival.

Bless Katie Siebert, her husband Mike, Brahm's healing, my future husband, my own heart, Jay, Ashley and Bo to receive my message with an open heart and let us truly have a new beginning with no strings attached!