A text to Reid and Jamie as I was driving into work yesterday:

"I just had a God revelation through Charlie Hall. All we need IS Him. And I'm not willing to keep quiet and go against Him and what He tells my heart just to keep my stumbled friends comfortable. I'm willing to give up two sweet friendships if that means He is glorified and His word isn't compromised by sin. Wow. It's a big morning already!"

And as I was reading my devotional this morning, this came up:
When Jesus’ teachings began to “offend” those who were following Him, many chose to leave (John 6:60-66). So He asked His disciples, “Do you also want to go away?” (v.67). Peter replied, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life” (v.68). Peter knew that Jesus was the living Word—God revealed in the flesh. He was willing to forsake everything in this life to pursue the One who is the Way, the Truth, and the Life.

I think His teachings are offending Bo, who doesn't see anything wrong with this Love 'em and Leave 'em attitude. I think His teachings are offending Ashley because she's never fully accepted God as the image of wholly trustworthy Father. She uses all her past and all her baggage as proof that God's not to be trusted. She would rather feel the warmth of an earthly man's embrace and hear all the love language that goes along with that than to do what she knows God is calling her to do and abstain from it all.

And I am willing to forsake everything in this life to pursue the One who is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. It hurts. It's scary. I don't know what the future holds. But I know that no matter what, God is good, God is awesome, God is HOLY and He is to be trusted. I feel like I've been abandoned and betrayed by those closest to me. I can only catch a glimpse of what Jesus must have felt. Let me take up my cross and follow Him.

I'm worried that I'm being proud and pompous and I'm letting Me shine through my words to Them and not God. Father, please make me transparent. Use me in whatever fashion is best benefiting you. I love you. I want to do things YOUR way. Break me. I'm down at your feet.