It's been a while...

...and I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I don't put you first more often, Lord. I'm sorry that I give in to sin and temptation so often. I'm sorry I rely so heavily on your grace, mercy and forgiveness when I should be relying on changing my sinful and pattern-making ways.

Father I come to you now with butterflies in my stomach and a heart that is trembling. I asked Eric to our party tonight--and obviously I would love for him to choose me to be his love and mate. But my real heart honestly wants only Your Best. I only want your will. Your Truth. So Father, please just do what you will with this evening. Father, help me accept the things you have planned. And if it's not what I've been daydreaming about (which I have honestly tried not to...) then be there to catch me when I fall. You know my heart. You know my wants, needs and desires. But thankfully you have me in your palm and you indeed have amazing and True plans for me.

So however much I want Eric to be My Fridge, I want more for you to be My God--and that's a trade I will gladly make...I'll just need your power to help me through.

I love you. I need you. I love who you've made me. I thank you for who I've become and who I will be.