I feel as if I'm on the cusp of something BIG. Important even. Fulfilling. Life altering. It's kind of scary--but it's a beautiful and wonderful peace.

God can use my past to equip my future. Moses was a murderer. Then a shepherd. Then a liberator.

I was a victim. I turned into a sex addict. I have a story. I work as a copy editor. I can be useful. I can help others--and that's been my mantra all along, I just thought it would look different.

Mandi spoke of writing a book. She compiled blogs and musings and that's what her book is: a collection. I've spoken of writing a memoir and a lot of it has been rehashing an ugly, yet vivid, past.

Now maybe it's a book of a journey filled with struggles...but with a glorious ending. I want to help people--so if that means showing them from where I've come and to where I'm going in the Lord--then so be it.

Lord, may your will be done.

and may my bevy of current crushes not deter me from your future, your present, your plan, your Perfection. Above all, I seek YOU.