The STRANGEST turn of events. I am literally speechless. And for those that know me well, I'm never speechless.
Since I'm speechless, I will just share with you, line by line, of the text message conversation that ensued after I sent my well crafted, "I don't even know your last name. I'm a girlfriend and wife, not a mistress." I honestly wasn't expecting a response. And if there was going to be one, it was going to be one of anger.
Him: I just got out of a relationship with the girl I thought I was gonna marry.
Him: She left me for her own reasons.
Me: I'm sorry the hurt that caused you. I can't even imagine.
Me: I have no place to ask you to jump into another relationship. None.
Me: I feel awful. I usually keep my distance from boys...but you are unavoidable. I thought I could be what you want. I thought I could be a one-night-stand girl. I'm too emotional. Cant do it without getting mangled in the process.
Him: The reason I am not just jumping in a relationship is because I fall easy and I am not ready to have to trust on that level yet.
Me: I am just a ball of mush and love ready for the right man...so I get it. I fall easy too. Too easily probably. I guess I'm just always convinced God has led me to The One. Not yet though.
Me: I wish I could take that hurt away from you. There's nothing worse in the world.
Him: Well, only because I feel that respect is major in any companionship, I won't bother you about sex anymore.
Him: We can just do the friend thing or try.
Me: I would like that very much. Thank you. I didn't expect this outcome at all. You have just surprised and amazed me, sir.
Him: I could do a lot more! Someday, hopefully you'll get that experience.
Me: One day at a time it is, then. I look forward to someday.
Him: Likewise.
Yep, still speechless. I AM worth the wait. I am worth the love and the romance and the mushy gushy stuff. And because I stood up for myself and my own worth and value there's a man that doesn't want to just walk away (as I was expecting and can totally understand)--he wants to take things slowly. Hmmmmmmm.
I saw one of my VERY religious friend's Facebook wall today:
Jesus 1, Anna 0.
2 comments:
Wow. I am really impressed--by you, by BBM, by God's sense of the dramatic. I thank you for your honesty and I really don't think you scored 0 out of this episode. Keep me posted--I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers (as cheesy as that sounds).
Love, Bep
my dearest Bep...thank you. And BBM hasn't contacted me today--so I really don't know where we stand. He DID say he didn't want to get serious/date right now. And he's really not my typical guy...so I don't know why I'm so hung up on him. One day at a time I suppose. :) love you!
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