Date: Wed, 28 Jun 2006 09:15:56 -0400
From: "Jenny"
To: "Anna"
Subject: Re: Well, now that's what I can an evening of excitement
Wow, that's a lot of emotion to go through in such a short period of time. I'm glad you're ok, and I'm glad you're seeing God in this. I'm going to go ahead and be that girl and bring up Bible Discussion in Isle Au Haut yesterday where we talked about the prodigal son... Luke 15, it's worth reading over.
Let me know what I can pray for.

My response:

Date: Wed, 28 Jun 2006 06:50:18 -0700 (PDT)
From: "Anna"
Subject: Re: Well, now that's what I can an evening of excitement
To: "Jenny"
Thanks. I feel good. Really good and positive. So
that's nice.

I have a blog that I keep as a journal/prayer list and
this is what I wrote yesterday--it'll give you a Reid
update. The texts are between me and Jamie, Reid's
sister. I'll put explanations in parentheses.

Text messaging

Me (june 26, 11:40 pm): Love you too. It just seems
like when it rains, it pours. Pardon the storm and
rain joke (it stormed all weekend here in the ATL).
I've just got a lot of praying to do. I'm extremely
nervous for your brother to be home in the fact that I
don't know if these thoughts of him have been made up
by me, which has happened before, or if it's really of
God. If it's of me, then I'm mad at myself for not
sticking to my year commitment. I really just want to
guard my heart. Then there's Ashley (my best friend
whom Jamie also know from high school and we're all
working a spiritual retreat together called Chrysalis
not this weekend but the next)'s future and faith to
pray for. Then my former and only love Joe (Joe, the
Joe you don't know but you feel like you do) called
and he's having a hard time with the fact that his
fiancee doesn't seem to want to plan a wedding anytime
soon...then there's my Bible study ladies. Then
Chrysalis (aforementioned spiritual retreat) and Bo (a
good friend that I met at youth group at my old
church--he's a grumpy old man too, but he's been
really good to me--see email from this morning)'s job
situation. And you and your family...but God is good,
faithful and perfect.

Jamie (june 27, 11:47 am): I just wanted you to know I
prayed for you. Also, about the Reid thing, I think
all you can do is let go and let God and hope that
Reid will do the same. You said before that him being
the head [is the most important] that you have to wait
and let him decide, but maybe rather than fretting
about it you should just be his friend and trust that
God will take care of the rest if it's to happen. If
not, He might have someone else wonderful planned for
you.

Me (june 27, 12:50 pm): Thanks! Just got your message.
And I completely agree. I've let it go. I can only be
who I am and if he's interested, great. If not, well,
I have my God and really, that's where my comfort and
future lie. Thanks for being such a good influence on
me.
_____________end blog_________________
So, I've really found a peace. My heart is calm and I
feel completely pulled into Christ and everything else
has faded edges. Of course I still want a whirlwind
romance with Reid, and sure I'll probably be a bit
disappointed if it doesn't happen--but my timetable
and agenda is nothing compared to His and I really
don't want to try to compete.

thanks friend for all that you are and all that you
mean to me.
love, anna