For today, I'm done

A lot can happen in 10 days. 10 days is when I last wrote on this here blog. 10 days ago I was riding on a "she likes me, she really likes me" high. I have since come down from that high. I've found, as was my original conclusion that I just chose to ignore, that I am indeed not a priority for Thumper and I am NOT a girl that can just play it cool or casual. I never have been and I don't know what made me think I could this time. I guess I wanted to try it as that's how all of my peers around me behave and they seem perfectly happy with such an outcome. I'm just not that girl.

So, Thump and I are done. Have I told her this? No. Will I? Possibly. She doesn't seem that invested in me anyway, so I doubt she'll notice. Wah wah. Woe is me and all that.

This past weekend I had houseguests. I haven't spent time with this couple for a while and we did super-fun Atlanta touristy things and ate out a lot.

[The rant that previously occupied this space has been deleted because I don't think it's fair for me to air such things so publically when I haven't even stated my frustrations with the affected parties. And I probably won't. Done and done.]

Also, I'm officially ending all of my online dating subscriptions today. I have been in that dating pool WAY too long. Like, I think I was one of the first people to sign up for that (insert cringe-worthy online dating site rep'd by that creepy old man "doctor."). I have been a single presence online since probably around 2002. It clearly has done nothing for me...so I'm done.

If I'm meant to be single, then so be it. I'm enjoying my life now. I love my friends. I love my job. I love where I live. I love Atlanta. I love sleeping when I want to sleep. I love watching Netflix until 5 AM when I want to. I love blasting NPR or Lady Gaga when I so choose. So, goodbye online dating baggage. I'm done with having an avenue that constantly makes me feel bad about myself.

Now, to turn my mood around and salvage this Thursday. I am currently enjoying my "Recently Added" playlist on my iPod which includes the new Lady Gaga, Fleet Foxes, and the awesome new Beastie Boys album.

I've already had coworkers ask about my altered mood--and free hugs abound. So, it's time to turn this frown upside down.